3.16.2009
1.21.2009
1.16.2009
im writing for real again
ok so i just reread what i wrote back in september. it was nice. to really write. to really say how i feel. i think its about that time again.
ok... im having a really big transition right now. im sort of realizing my age. what i should be doing is different than what i am. im feeling like im not really living or that ive been living for others. the problem is im nobodies number one. and i need to quit acting like i am. i need to do whats good for me. i need to act like a person who answers to no other person but herself and God. because i dont act like that. and there is gonna be a day when i do answer to someone else. a boyfriend, then husband, then kids, but for now i dont and i need to enjoy it.
i need to branch out. i need to experience life on my own. and i dont mean i need to be alone i just mean i need to have my own life. i feel like ive never really lived my own life. first it was my parents life. that lasted too long, me living for them.
then it was the rebel's life. which was me but it was my dark side, not the good dark side that i like. it was, how can i put this, the red side. angry, rebellious(without any sort of motivation), and destructive. then it was school. what i should or shouldn't do without asking myself what i wanted.
and aside from going to Europe alone and moving to asheville (Which in all honesty, I think i half-assed both of those experiences to my own detriment) i have been living for or through my friends. they have managed to be friends, great friends and yet maintain their own lives and make themselves a priority. I have no yet figured out how to do that. but im starting to. little by little week by week. its as if it were a subconscious new years resolution.
suddenly im motivated to go out, do things, meet people, and pursue my photography. its a revelation. its a breath of fresh air. its like im finally being myself. its also lonely. scary. unstable and unforgiving. im scared. of loads of things. repercussions, loss, gain, heartbreak, drama, humiliation, defeat and success. who knows how it will turn out but at least its something. at least im not bored. at least im not resentful. at least i can hope that something will change in this next year. whereas before i knew it wouldnt, i knew a year would pass i would be in the exact same place. part of me found a comfort in that. but nothing has ever made me more disappointed in myself.
so now. onward. with self assurance(even if its fake). with gusto. with hope.
come on now! ashley - let's make some moves.
anyone who read all the way through this. i love you and im more than lucky to have you in my life, especially when im basically loosing my mind.
ok... im having a really big transition right now. im sort of realizing my age. what i should be doing is different than what i am. im feeling like im not really living or that ive been living for others. the problem is im nobodies number one. and i need to quit acting like i am. i need to do whats good for me. i need to act like a person who answers to no other person but herself and God. because i dont act like that. and there is gonna be a day when i do answer to someone else. a boyfriend, then husband, then kids, but for now i dont and i need to enjoy it.
i need to branch out. i need to experience life on my own. and i dont mean i need to be alone i just mean i need to have my own life. i feel like ive never really lived my own life. first it was my parents life. that lasted too long, me living for them.
then it was the rebel's life. which was me but it was my dark side, not the good dark side that i like. it was, how can i put this, the red side. angry, rebellious(without any sort of motivation), and destructive. then it was school. what i should or shouldn't do without asking myself what i wanted.
and aside from going to Europe alone and moving to asheville (Which in all honesty, I think i half-assed both of those experiences to my own detriment) i have been living for or through my friends. they have managed to be friends, great friends and yet maintain their own lives and make themselves a priority. I have no yet figured out how to do that. but im starting to. little by little week by week. its as if it were a subconscious new years resolution.
suddenly im motivated to go out, do things, meet people, and pursue my photography. its a revelation. its a breath of fresh air. its like im finally being myself. its also lonely. scary. unstable and unforgiving. im scared. of loads of things. repercussions, loss, gain, heartbreak, drama, humiliation, defeat and success. who knows how it will turn out but at least its something. at least im not bored. at least im not resentful. at least i can hope that something will change in this next year. whereas before i knew it wouldnt, i knew a year would pass i would be in the exact same place. part of me found a comfort in that. but nothing has ever made me more disappointed in myself.
so now. onward. with self assurance(even if its fake). with gusto. with hope.
come on now! ashley - let's make some moves.
anyone who read all the way through this. i love you and im more than lucky to have you in my life, especially when im basically loosing my mind.
1.15.2009
is this some kind of joke
be warned. do not throw yourself at your computer screen. try to resist.
click on it so you can see it in its intended form.
click on it so you can see it in its intended form.
Tour Time
David Cook is announcing his solo tour dates TOMORROW! AHHHHHHH! I am so excited. I am at least going to one. and lets be real here probably three if i can swing it. Im thinking Atlanta, Charlotte and maybe Chicago. Just depending on the dates. im so excited i could scream. and now that he and that nasty girl broke up...well ive just got to get on that you know? ha. just kidding well sort of. i love you david and cant wait to be with you again!
1.14.2009
3 things
ok.
1. i love american idol. im in the midst of watching the season premiere and i love it. i already heard two people i really like and feel like i could be a great judge on the show. haha. you know what i mean. like i can hear music and pitch well and i just have so much to say about everyone who auditions haha.
2. revolutionary road was amazing. depressing yes. beautiful yes. the best performance from leonardo (and i am an expert, having seen all his films) that i have ever seen. wonderful, tragic, emotionally stirring, and just breathtaking.
3. sirius radio hogwarts faction big butt. haha ive been listening to a lot of radio bam lately and if anyone who reads this has they would understand. aka i love bam, he is funny. haha. :)
1. i love american idol. im in the midst of watching the season premiere and i love it. i already heard two people i really like and feel like i could be a great judge on the show. haha. you know what i mean. like i can hear music and pitch well and i just have so much to say about everyone who auditions haha.
2. revolutionary road was amazing. depressing yes. beautiful yes. the best performance from leonardo (and i am an expert, having seen all his films) that i have ever seen. wonderful, tragic, emotionally stirring, and just breathtaking.
3. sirius radio hogwarts faction big butt. haha ive been listening to a lot of radio bam lately and if anyone who reads this has they would understand. aka i love bam, he is funny. haha. :)
1.06.2009
i'm chuck bass
i love chuck bass. he is such an amazing character with so much depth. it makes me sad that there are people who dont get to witness this show. ed westwick is a great actor and does a great job with the best character on gossip girl. i hope he goes on to great things!
we love you
we love you
12.30.2008
I'm in love with a fictional character
ok so this phrase started with Jim Halpert. And that was true but I guess Jim and the rest of us had no clue what we were in for.
the ultimate fictional character that we are all in love with....
and then there is the newest and my personal favorite (obviously second to edward but one that is just right for me...)
ahh Chuck Bass at the white party...sigh at last I can breath again. or has my breath been taken away for the final time... guess you'll have to wait and see.
you know you love me.
xoxo,
A
the ultimate fictional character that we are all in love with....
and then there is the newest and my personal favorite (obviously second to edward but one that is just right for me...)
ahh Chuck Bass at the white party...sigh at last I can breath again. or has my breath been taken away for the final time... guess you'll have to wait and see.
you know you love me.
xoxo,
A
12.23.2008
MERRY SEXY CHRISTMAS WOW!
ive been watching the first season of gossip girl on dvd.
i love chuck bass
he is well...just enjoy.
i love chuck bass
he is well...just enjoy.
12.15.2008
12.11.2008
my birthday is coming up
and all I want is...
edward cullen
chuck bass
and david cook
is that too much to ask for? really?
edward cullen
chuck bass
and david cook
is that too much to ask for? really?
12.02.2008
11.24.2008
Twlight again
its the 29th highest opening weekend gross in history. after 300 and before transformers. WHAT?!@?!??! and its the 4th highest opening weekend gross of the year so far.
1. The Dark Knight - 158.4
2. Indiana Jones - 100
3. Iron Man - 98.6
4. Twilight - 70.8
THIS IS A BIG DEAL.
keep in mind also that Twilight was released on a 1000 less theatres that the other 3 films.
Twilight VICTORY
70.55 million in its opening weekend.
highest opening gross for a female director in history.
Made more than the new bond Quantum of Solace's opening whos opening weekend was 68 mill with more screens than twilight.
BLOCKBUSTER OPENING even though it doesn't have a a list actor or director attached. woo.
11.19.2008
David Cook on Regis and Kelly
Im sorry what time do they shoot this? Like 8am? I dont care if you dont like him, his voice is on fire!
oh and he's hot. had to throw that in there and he likes muse, in particular my favorite song, Stockholm Syndrome!...shit.
oh and he's hot. had to throw that in there and he likes muse, in particular my favorite song, Stockholm Syndrome!...shit.
11.18.2008
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