7.19.2010
Inception
I saw Inception last night. It is AMAZING! I can't wait to see it again and again. I'll talk more about it after I've seen it a second time. These are the stairs from my kitchen up to the rooftop patio and it reminded me of the movie. I love where I live!
Boot Camp Sunrise
So I've been doing a boot camp workout. It's MWF and it's at 5.30 am. It is gnarly. But I really want to get my size down so I can buy more clothes. :) I love fashion and I want a body I can be proud of and where crazy stuff in and look good. So boot camp is the start of my transformation. I've done a week and a day of it and its 5 weeks total. So there should be a pretty big change. We shall see. So this is the sunrise AFTER boot camp is over.
Dogs, Dogs, Dogs
Annie Hall looks as cool as snow in her sunnies. :)
Maggie and the new puppy Romeo, my friend's aunt's dogs. They're the cutest, hu?
Annie loves Harry Potter TOO!
Maggie and the new puppy Romeo, my friend's aunt's dogs. They're the cutest, hu?
Annie loves Harry Potter TOO!
7.14.2010
LA
So I was in LA for a week at the beginning of June. IT WAS AWESOME. I had a great time, met some great people, it was a blast. I even caught a Dodger game! So, here are two pictures from my cell. More to come from my real camera.
The Loft
So I moved recently. Not cities, but that's okay, I think that will happen when it is supposed to and probably in the next 5 years but I don't feel the need to rush. Especially now that I live in an awesome loft in Downtown Knoxville.
I have two new roommates, Kat and Mo, who are awesome and so much fun to hang out with. I love my kitchen and living room and I'm made my room all cozy and it's great! Here are a few pictures. Also, did I mention the rooftop patio. I didn't? Well, it exists and it's awesome!
Hank and Annie (Hank is Kat's dog, he's sweet. And Annie Hall, the infamous one)
I have two new roommates, Kat and Mo, who are awesome and so much fun to hang out with. I love my kitchen and living room and I'm made my room all cozy and it's great! Here are a few pictures. Also, did I mention the rooftop patio. I didn't? Well, it exists and it's awesome!
Hank and Annie (Hank is Kat's dog, he's sweet. And Annie Hall, the infamous one)
7.10.2010
New York City from my cell phone
union sq the day i got there.
scarf and specs from forever 21.
upper east side
Central Park Zoo
seeing Ricky Gervais stand up at the theatre at madison sq garden. EPICALLY HILARIOUS!
the set of my friend mo's play. AWESOME!
view from the roof of mo's building in queens. left the next morning.
It was an amazing trip. I took it in mid may. these are just pictures from my cell phone. more to come from my real camera. New york. my favorite city in the world, well that ive been too. ill live there one day!
7.08.2010
Workin' For the Weekend
had a little impromptu photo-shoot at lunch yesterday. just with a little pocket sized digital camera and a little editing with Microsoft photo editor. hope you like it.
lipstick is Kat Von D in Hellbent. I love it. Perfect red shade with a dash of pink for summertime.
headband is forever 21.
dress is ASOS.com curve. I love it so. Mix of colorful floral and black and white polka dots and squares. It's rock and roll and girly all in one.
and that's my dog Annie Hall. <3
today is my last day of work for the week so that is AWESOME. I can't wait for the long weekend to begin. Hopefully spending a lot of time with my best friend amy.
7.07.2010
Today, I call
So things are difficult. Life is really hard. It's even harder without a partner. But that's where I am. I have to figure out myself before I'm ready anyway or it will not be a partnership. It will be one person dragging another through life. That's not fair to anyone. I know now that I need this. I need to be okay with myself. It's harder than I thought. I always thought I had that part all together. I didn't. I don't. But that's okay. It's going to be okay.
Another picture. Entitled 2nd Wave(this is my photography by the way.) Also how different am I from the 24 year old that posted on here before. It's like looking at myself 10 years ago even though it was only two. I also feel like looking at myself a month ago was 10 years ago.
Another picture. Entitled 2nd Wave(this is my photography by the way.) Also how different am I from the 24 year old that posted on here before. It's like looking at myself 10 years ago even though it was only two. I also feel like looking at myself a month ago was 10 years ago.
7.01.2010
Funny Girl
So, it's been ages baby, but I've been busy. A lot's changed in over a year. I feel different. I feel older. I feel somehow tougher and more vulnerable at the same time. I've learned some things, about myself, about others, and about how me needing people makes me one of the luckiest people in the world.
I'm back to tell you about it, about me, about my heart. If anyone is reading out there. I'll put some pictures up too, if ya like.
Like this:
And a little treat to tell you how I feel inside. I'll let Barbra explain.
I'm back to tell you about it, about me, about my heart. If anyone is reading out there. I'll put some pictures up too, if ya like.
Like this:
And a little treat to tell you how I feel inside. I'll let Barbra explain.
4.12.2009
He has called Me by name.
A lot of things have occurred in the last month of my life. Things that sort of turned my life upside down. In about 5 different aspects and/or relationships I have come to a standstill. I'm not going to go into detail because honestly, none of that matters. Not that I don't care about it. I do care, deeply.
But I have realized something through all of the mess. That I have been living my life unfair to myself, unfair to the people around me and most importantly, unfair to my relationship with Jesus. I have placed the responsibility of God's promises on other people and things in my life, like work or friends or even family.
The point is, no one can live up to those standards and neither can I. I have put too much of my hope into work or success or friendships or family. When, in fact, my hope can only be in Jesus. (Just to clarify, I am speaking of myself. and not onto anyone else's beliefs or life. Im only commenting on my own heart.) I have hurt myself and those around me by misplacing my hope and commitment.
I realize now that I was also trying to be too much for too many people. I cant take on that responsibility. I can only be a good friend. But i need my boundaries. Because when I don't have them I get spread too thin and too much depends on me. I'm human, I'm not capable of being the perfect friend or the perfect employee or the perfect artist. I have placed it on myself and that is a mistake.
I need to put up boundaries in every aspect of my life. I need to do what is right for me. I need to take care of myself. In the past few months, I have completely lost who I am dealing with everyone and everything else that is beyond my control. This has been brewing for years but over the last few months I have completely
lost control.
I realize now, that what is fundamental to me, what I need most in this world is a relationship with Jesus. Its the only thing I can count on. Its the only thing that will make me feel truly safe, truly loved, and truly unique.
So that's what I will be working on. My spiritual life. And in other aspects giving myself a rest. I hope anyone who reads this understands and if you want to talk to me about it more deeply, then cool.
I have seen my God and He has called Me by name.
But I have realized something through all of the mess. That I have been living my life unfair to myself, unfair to the people around me and most importantly, unfair to my relationship with Jesus. I have placed the responsibility of God's promises on other people and things in my life, like work or friends or even family.
The point is, no one can live up to those standards and neither can I. I have put too much of my hope into work or success or friendships or family. When, in fact, my hope can only be in Jesus. (Just to clarify, I am speaking of myself. and not onto anyone else's beliefs or life. Im only commenting on my own heart.) I have hurt myself and those around me by misplacing my hope and commitment.
I realize now that I was also trying to be too much for too many people. I cant take on that responsibility. I can only be a good friend. But i need my boundaries. Because when I don't have them I get spread too thin and too much depends on me. I'm human, I'm not capable of being the perfect friend or the perfect employee or the perfect artist. I have placed it on myself and that is a mistake.
I need to put up boundaries in every aspect of my life. I need to do what is right for me. I need to take care of myself. In the past few months, I have completely lost who I am dealing with everyone and everything else that is beyond my control. This has been brewing for years but over the last few months I have completely
lost control.
I realize now, that what is fundamental to me, what I need most in this world is a relationship with Jesus. Its the only thing I can count on. Its the only thing that will make me feel truly safe, truly loved, and truly unique.
So that's what I will be working on. My spiritual life. And in other aspects giving myself a rest. I hope anyone who reads this understands and if you want to talk to me about it more deeply, then cool.
I have seen my God and He has called Me by name.
4.03.2009
cant explain it.
i absolutely love this man and this picture is one of my favorites. cant explain it.
3.16.2009
1.21.2009
1.16.2009
im writing for real again
ok so i just reread what i wrote back in september. it was nice. to really write. to really say how i feel. i think its about that time again.
ok... im having a really big transition right now. im sort of realizing my age. what i should be doing is different than what i am. im feeling like im not really living or that ive been living for others. the problem is im nobodies number one. and i need to quit acting like i am. i need to do whats good for me. i need to act like a person who answers to no other person but herself and God. because i dont act like that. and there is gonna be a day when i do answer to someone else. a boyfriend, then husband, then kids, but for now i dont and i need to enjoy it.
i need to branch out. i need to experience life on my own. and i dont mean i need to be alone i just mean i need to have my own life. i feel like ive never really lived my own life. first it was my parents life. that lasted too long, me living for them.
then it was the rebel's life. which was me but it was my dark side, not the good dark side that i like. it was, how can i put this, the red side. angry, rebellious(without any sort of motivation), and destructive. then it was school. what i should or shouldn't do without asking myself what i wanted.
and aside from going to Europe alone and moving to asheville (Which in all honesty, I think i half-assed both of those experiences to my own detriment) i have been living for or through my friends. they have managed to be friends, great friends and yet maintain their own lives and make themselves a priority. I have no yet figured out how to do that. but im starting to. little by little week by week. its as if it were a subconscious new years resolution.
suddenly im motivated to go out, do things, meet people, and pursue my photography. its a revelation. its a breath of fresh air. its like im finally being myself. its also lonely. scary. unstable and unforgiving. im scared. of loads of things. repercussions, loss, gain, heartbreak, drama, humiliation, defeat and success. who knows how it will turn out but at least its something. at least im not bored. at least im not resentful. at least i can hope that something will change in this next year. whereas before i knew it wouldnt, i knew a year would pass i would be in the exact same place. part of me found a comfort in that. but nothing has ever made me more disappointed in myself.
so now. onward. with self assurance(even if its fake). with gusto. with hope.
come on now! ashley - let's make some moves.
anyone who read all the way through this. i love you and im more than lucky to have you in my life, especially when im basically loosing my mind.
ok... im having a really big transition right now. im sort of realizing my age. what i should be doing is different than what i am. im feeling like im not really living or that ive been living for others. the problem is im nobodies number one. and i need to quit acting like i am. i need to do whats good for me. i need to act like a person who answers to no other person but herself and God. because i dont act like that. and there is gonna be a day when i do answer to someone else. a boyfriend, then husband, then kids, but for now i dont and i need to enjoy it.
i need to branch out. i need to experience life on my own. and i dont mean i need to be alone i just mean i need to have my own life. i feel like ive never really lived my own life. first it was my parents life. that lasted too long, me living for them.
then it was the rebel's life. which was me but it was my dark side, not the good dark side that i like. it was, how can i put this, the red side. angry, rebellious(without any sort of motivation), and destructive. then it was school. what i should or shouldn't do without asking myself what i wanted.
and aside from going to Europe alone and moving to asheville (Which in all honesty, I think i half-assed both of those experiences to my own detriment) i have been living for or through my friends. they have managed to be friends, great friends and yet maintain their own lives and make themselves a priority. I have no yet figured out how to do that. but im starting to. little by little week by week. its as if it were a subconscious new years resolution.
suddenly im motivated to go out, do things, meet people, and pursue my photography. its a revelation. its a breath of fresh air. its like im finally being myself. its also lonely. scary. unstable and unforgiving. im scared. of loads of things. repercussions, loss, gain, heartbreak, drama, humiliation, defeat and success. who knows how it will turn out but at least its something. at least im not bored. at least im not resentful. at least i can hope that something will change in this next year. whereas before i knew it wouldnt, i knew a year would pass i would be in the exact same place. part of me found a comfort in that. but nothing has ever made me more disappointed in myself.
so now. onward. with self assurance(even if its fake). with gusto. with hope.
come on now! ashley - let's make some moves.
anyone who read all the way through this. i love you and im more than lucky to have you in my life, especially when im basically loosing my mind.
1.15.2009
is this some kind of joke
be warned. do not throw yourself at your computer screen. try to resist.
click on it so you can see it in its intended form.
click on it so you can see it in its intended form.
Tour Time
David Cook is announcing his solo tour dates TOMORROW! AHHHHHHH! I am so excited. I am at least going to one. and lets be real here probably three if i can swing it. Im thinking Atlanta, Charlotte and maybe Chicago. Just depending on the dates. im so excited i could scream. and now that he and that nasty girl broke up...well ive just got to get on that you know? ha. just kidding well sort of. i love you david and cant wait to be with you again!
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